Crown the empire, of mice and men, the Maine, cute is when we aim for, selfie with the drummer from mayday parade, RONNIE! And Ronnie again, mayday parade, and then the whole group ! Plus two more people. All in all this warped tour was one of the best warped tours that I have ever been too. This was my 7th or 8th one . I had such a great time with everyone, meet new people, saw old friends, spent the day with the love of my life, saw awesome bands play like the ones above plus four year strong, the devil wears prada, secerts & yellowcard; got to meet Jeff and Sean from cute is what we aim for and the drummer of mayday parade . I heard songs I wanted to hear and got jump around and mosh . This year was just such a great experience and I am just so over whelmed and happy with it and I can’t wait until next year . This is what I live and breathe for, the lyrics, the bands, the artist that have made me stronger that have gave me hope that have let me move on that have let me cry it all out; I just love the music that plays at warped, it is so diverse to me. I am just really happy about yesterday and I am just really happy that I had the chance to go to warped tour 2014 ! Excited for warped your 2015 now 😁😁😁
I am so proud of my boyfriend for being in the top four of the game informers gallery ! Good job babe ! #gameinformer #proud
Pierce the veil and sleeping with sirens are touring soon together and they are playing in pa on my birthday ! I am totally going to this ! Tickets go on sale Saturday ! #piercetheveil #sleepingwithsirens #mybirthday #worldtour
Another selfie of the day…. Sorry I am just really happy with how my hair turned out #whitegirlproblems #redhead
With out people flipping out and miss understanding what I am saying … But it seems like my friends and I are the only ones that aren’t engaged or having a babyy . We all have boyfriends too so it’s not like we are single . I’m just saying we are 21, we just graduated college, and we haven’t even been dating our significant others for that long…. Soo why are we rushing things it seems . Maybe not all of us are rushing things, but the majority are . But hey I guess what we feel is what we feel and it feels right, but I just don’t get why everyone is getting married or engaged so fast . I’m not saying everyone should do this, but for myself I need at least a few years with you, then maybe we can move in together, and then Heyy yeah let’s get engaged, and five years or so later let’s make a baby. I’m just saying I’m not in a “rush” for anything, I just want to sit back and see where life takes me with my goals.
I just need someone, anyone to just be right in my physical appearance. I don’t need them to say a word . I just need them right there so I can look at them and wonder what are they thinking about . What is going through there mind, and then just maybe this feeling might go away or maybe something worse has happened to them . Is that wrong to say . Is that wrong to think . I honestly don’t even know if I need that or if that will work . Maybe I just need to try a little harder and this feeling will go away . Or maybe I don’t feel like it and I just want to feel this . Or maybe I am just over reacting . But if I am over reacting then why hasn’t it gone away yet, why won’t it go away . Maybe I should just smoke another cigarette to calm my nerves. But another cigarette is just going to fuck up my breathing more . I can’t sleep . I just sit here and scroll through pages and pages of shit, looking but not looking, and nothing takes it off my mind . I’m okay, I swear I’m okay, but I’m not . My mind is fine, but my body is not . Telling myself I am okay over and over again doesn’t work . I’m not crying like I should be, I think that will take a few days . I think Monday I will break down and Tuesday possibly as well . Is there something wrong with how I am coping . This is worse than a break up. I actually haven’t felt like this since a break up 4 years ago . I don’t need any one to talk to, it’s all been said and there is nothing else to talk about . I just need to get it out of my head and than maybe I will feel better . I’m not crazy I swear, it’s just what I have to do and I don’t even know what I have to do . I think I’m done for now .
I can’t believe that you are gone pop. I just saw you yesterday morning, we all knew it was a matter of time but we had no idea that it was going to happen so fast . So fast it all happened . I love you so much grandpa and I know you are in a better place now, just please watch down on grandma and all your children and grand children and great grandchildren, I know you will pop. I just miss you so much and I just really can’t believe that you are gone . I just don’t believe it right now . I love you pop-pop!
And stop letting it affect me, because I really do not care, but I’m just such a nice person and I guess I still am attached to certain things/people so it makes my body care but not my brain . And I believe in the body/mind connection so it makes sense to me; however, I only want him close to me and he is the only person that I care is close to me or not . Only him I want close to me and he is close to me and he has been close to me and I shouldn’t care about others and what they are doing and what they are up to because there is no point or purpose of that when they don’t care what I am up to or what I am doing . My whole point of this is to just say that I am happy and I am content with having him to go to, because he is always there and has always been there, even when I have never asked him to he still is there . My mind understands, but my body does not, and my body really needs to start to understand this .
Happy 26th birthday Steven (: I am so happy that I get to spend another birthday with you babe and I hope you had a good birthday weekend tooo (: I just want you to have a great day because you deserve it babe, you really do and I am happy that you get to relax too babe (: I love you so much, so much I love you and I am really just so happy to get to spend this day with you (: happy birthday babyy (: #happybirthday #birthday #babe #nice #love #relax #happy #excited